Moon Set, May

Part 9, Endings.

We fought. Not really a fight
but all night-discussing-things-that-were-hard-until the sun came up. 

Then he left, and we hadn't really resolved anything
ex
cept that we had. 

I was sad. sad sad sad sad. 

I have
learned that not everything I want
is for me. 

And that's
ok.

What I want to do is
dance with the people
who want to dance
with me.

I want to let my heart be
loved
and let it dance
out on my sleeve
with people who
appreciate
and will hold it like
the strong, fertile
offering
that it is. 

I want to hold my own

heart

like a seed. 

Plant it only in places

rich with sunlight

and abundant water.

Where the soil is plentiful with nutrients

to nurture it. 

I am surrounded by a family of people
who love me. 
and the love feels so enormous. It surrounds 
me, 

A beautiful rainbow cloud

bursting with fresh water.

What happened with ** needed to happen. 
I do not regret any of it. 

I hope he finds his way, 
but I am accepting 
if we don't cross paths
again
in a significant way. 
I'll be sad, but I have 
learned that not everything I want
is for me. 

and that's ok.

I want to protect
my sparrow-heart from 
those who will 
toss it in vinegar. 

and cover it with 

ashes. 

Endings are never really endings.

Death is only the beginning. 

I have 
learned that not everything I want
is for me. 

But there are always flowers. 

And oak trees. 

And coming home.